Anyone else just struggle with what they are supposed to do in life? I feel the next decision I make with my career will help define the next 10-15 years of my life. Do I stay and keep fighting? Or do I go and try something new and different? I read other blogs, websites, books hoping that it will just click in my head. Or something will just land in my lap. I guess I just need to figure it out and go all in on whatever decision I make.
So I haven’t written in quite a while. Life is interesting just how distracted we can get when things become hectic. My life has changed so much in the last 10 months it’s crazy. I could be getting engaged in the next 6 months and changing careers amongst other things. My commitment is more posts, as I feel there are so many other people going through what I am and that we all need motivation every now and then. Remember this, as I have it tattooed on me. Never give up.
So I was recently given a new book by my sister in law, The School of Greatness by Lewis Howes. At first I was a bit taken back by the fact that a self help book had been purchased for me. I was thinking to myself, well nice gesture but somewhat offended that my sister in law felt I needed this book. Then I read the synopsis on the inside cover and became instantly intrigued. In fact I couldn’t wait to read the book.
The way Howes writes makes the book easy to get through and really simplifies some subjects that most people have a hard time truly understanding. He helps you open up to the reality of achieving your greatest goals. I know personally I have said it a million times, “that’s not possible, I’m too old to do that, or I can’t do that.” From the get go it helped me open my mind up to possibilities and view the decisions I’m making in a different way. The book goes much deeper into more subjects and I plan on visiting those more soon.
To purchase the book click here.
So junior high was pretty normal for me, the town I live in only had one school, I grew a lot in this period of my life. I had my first girlfriend, first kiss, was exposed to drugs for the first time in my life, made new friends and hit that awesome point in my life called puberty.
All in all my two years in junior high was pretty average. High school though was a much different experience. I was so nervous on my first day of high school, looking back now it’s funny because there really wasn’t anything to be afraid of. I don’t know if I thought I was going to be picked on, or not have friends or what would happen. But it was fine, I survived, I saw my friends after I was dropped off. After a few months I tried out for the soccer team and made it. I was so happy, I definitely wasn’t the best, but I think my heart and work ethic helped me.
Nothing great happened my freshman year, made some more friends and had lots of experiences for the first time in life. Things really started changing in my sophomore year when my brother came to high school with me. I played soccer again and he also made the team. He had more talent and was quite obviously the better player. In hindsight probably not the best idea that we were on the same team because we looked out for each other and protected each other if someone tackled one of us. When the season ended is when the realities of the real world hit our family.
My brother was kicked out of school for having weed on him. I had to find out through a rumor going around after break. I was mad that I didn’t hear it from my parents. What made matters worse was that we were leaving that day for our spring break to visit our family out in Vegas for a few days. Imagine that awkward car drive. He was transferred to a school in the next city over and my brother/my family now had a reputation. Although I was pretty much the opposite of him. I had smoked a few times, but it had never really appealed to me, I also had only drank maybe once or twice at that point in my life.
Turning 16 and getting my drivers license was a huge accomplishment for me. I soon became the school bus for all my friends(whom later were not my friends). I quit playing soccer after my sophomore season as I didn’t like my coach. I then really focused on getting good grades and skateboarding. It seems that skateboarding was all I did and that mattered to me. This is also when I became more into music, and movies and really started developing a personality……
So I’m a man in his mid 30’s, semi-successful in life with a pretty big family and group of friends. I was born in the early 80’s in South Orange County California. I come from an amazing family, both of my parents are the most loving and supportive than any others that I know. My Mom is one is 7 siblings and my Dad is one of 5 siblings. So I have a big extended family. Most of which is also located in Southern California.
I have one brother, about 17 months or so younger than me. We really didn’t like each other until about 6 or 7 years ago. Growing up he had some “issues” which caused major problems with our family. Nowadays he has turned it all around and has a great wife and a 4 year old son who is the best.
When I was younger I played sports, soccer, basketball, baseball, flag football, I tried nearly everything possibly. But soccer is what stood out the most to me, as I still play today. I also played in High School and intramural soccer in college. I still today am borderline obsessed with soccer and my two favorite teams are the LA Galaxy and Newcastle United of England.
My upbringing was pretty normal, my Dad worked his ass off to grow his company to become what it is today. My Mom was a stay at home Mom for the most part and was so good to us. But I always felt like I was missing something in my life…….
I’m basically creating this because I feel there is more people out in the world like me, people who are confused, worried about decisions, just really not sure what to do and how to go about things. Don’t get me wrong, I’m extremely lucky in my life, I have a good career, an amazing family and supportive group of friends.
So what is so confusing you may say? Well a recent change in scenery in my career is one big thing that has had a major effect on me as of late, and my changing sense of what is important to me. I always have had so many ideas in my mind, there’s so much that goes on up there that I feel writing all of this out will help me with these ideas, make some sense of them and made the right decisions I need to to keep moving forward in a positive fashion in my life.
I’m going to do my best to write daily on a different subject, maybe about my life, my family or friends. Or maybe about my career, or these “ideas” I always have. I think there are more people in their mid 30’s that feel this way, maybe this will help someone. Maybe it will help me. Well that being said, here it goes……